flowers for you

 

DSC_6727 (1)It’s been a month since you have passed away…

You said…

No flowers on your grave…

instead..

Flowers are for me…for my smile and my photography…

 

 

So,  here’s my flowers from Lebanon..every photos I took, it reminded me, how patient you were, waiting to finish my photos, scrutinizing every details , commenting on how I took the shot. Appreciating the moment, though at times, you told me to stop!

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you said…

Stop taking pictures…

Feel the moment, smell the flower, appreciate the nature, see the colors…

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and I said…

I like to take photos for other people to see the beauty of nature

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you said..

They will appreciate your photos not the flowers..they cannot hold and smell it.

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And yet, as the days passed you also took photos of every flowers on the streets or shops and sent it to me.

I guess you just want me to be happy 🙂

” no rains..no flowers”

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Photos were taken from the mountain of Lebanon by jamilamimi@beautybeyondfifty.(2018 June)

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“Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation”

-Khalil Gibran

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It was many and many a year ago,
   In a kingdom by the sea,
That a maiden there lived whom you may know
   By the name of Annabel Lee;
And this maiden she lived with no other thought
   Than to love and be loved by me.
I was a child and she was a child,
   In this kingdom by the sea,
But we loved with a love that was more than love—
   I and my Annabel Lee—
With a love that the wingèd seraphs of Heaven
   Coveted her and me.
And this was the reason that, long ago,
   In this kingdom by the sea,
A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling
   My beautiful Annabel Lee;
So that her highborn kinsmen came
   And bore her away from me,
To shut her up in a sepulchre
   In this kingdom by the sea.
The angels, not half so happy in Heaven,
   Went envying her and me—
Yes!—that was the reason (as all men know,
   In this kingdom by the sea)
That the wind came out of the cloud by night,
   Chilling and killing my Annabel Lee.
But our love it was stronger by far than the love
   Of those who were older than we—
   Of many far wiser than we—
And neither the angels in Heaven above
   Nor the demons down under the sea
Can ever dissever my soul from the soul
   Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
For the moon never beams, without bringing me dreams
   Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And the stars never rise, but I feel the bright eyes
   Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side
   Of my darling—my darling—my life and my bride,
   In her sepulchre there by the sea—
   In her tomb by the sounding sea.
 -Edgar Allan Poe
We love old soul, old stuff, nature and all.. gone too soon but will be in our heart forever…

allow me to grieve

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A love story of two people who were in love but doesn’t know how deep it was until they got separated and now that they met again..mixed emotion runs deep..confused on how to end their love affair.. tragic and ironic but hopelessly romantic!

The face is the mirror of the mind, and eyes without speaking confess the secrets of the heart. 
Saint Jerome

I often think why I like you.  I could not single out just one reason.  you have so many good qualities as a person and I think it’s the combination of all of these qualities that elevates you from an average woman.   your good looks is the least of all these.  I’m not going to spend anymore time thinking what is it that makes you look so attractive. It’s enough that I like myself when I was with you.

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I thought it will be heaven.. perfect for my dreams, I begun a journey with a partner with a different destination so when we finally “ arrived,” we don’t know where we are..

mi

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My lady no.8- Marietta de Castro

Have you fall in love with the same person who you haven’t seen for many years?

Have you found the one that get away and re-connected?

It was a mixed emotion of love, excitement and hoping… What if?

It’s been awhile I did not feature any lady beyond fifty aka beauty beyond fifty. Hence, it’s a month of love, I would like to share a glimpsed of love story of my lady no.8, Marietta de Castro – Mayette ,as we fondly call her.. is my high school classmate and best friend way back in 70’s. I know in your head, your counting our age hahahaha! To spare your mind thinking, She is 58 years old.

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Mayette is one of our top ten students in High school.Like everyone else, after HS grad, each one went on separate ways, though we were able to connect at one time when we were in College, that was my first and last time I saw her with her then boyfriend Paul.

Fast forward, I saw her again after four years, me as a registered nurse but recently enrolled in UE college of Dentistry and OMG! She was pregnant!Her first born was my first godson but I never had a chance to really re-connect. I got pre-occupied with my studies and she as a young mom. And guess what? I got married too and went abroad. We got reconnected at our HS reunion. So the next thing we knew, I am working as a Dentist with two sons and she, as a business lady with 3 children! Wow!

Guess what? I saw her again after so many years, children were all grown up, my first godson died, she recently separated from her husband and my marriage was also on the rocks. What a coincidence! Though our living condition is different, our path seems to cross every four years with such drama that we re-connect as if we just saw each other yesterday.

So here’s the interesting love story of 2018, Paul her college boyfriend, went to USA and remained single all these years. Last year, they re-connected through Facebook and what comes next is a wonderful sparks that was put on hold and re-opened.

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Though Mayette has been separated and her marriage was not registered and did not co-exist, in Philippines, once you are married and not annulled, you are still considered married. (rolling my eyes up and away) hypocrisy isn’t it?

However, fate as its own way, her then husband died of cancer and so mayette is now legally single – widowed.

I know, your guess is right! Paul came to Philippines and got engaged with our lady in red, Mayette. 🙂 wow!

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I will save the love story in the next chapter..

For now, I like to make a toast for you Mayette, may this be the beginning of your happy journey and I know what ever obstacle you may encounter will just be an icing on the cake for you, having suffered so many mishap, this journey will be bounded and guarded with love. My best wishes to you and Paul.

Happy Valentines day!

Cheers,

Jamilamimi@beautybeyondfifty

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Do you remember?

 

The first time you fall in love?

You hear the fast heartbeat ..the growling of stomach…

food poisoning?

but for you it is love…

the redness of your face whenever he stares at you..

allergy?

 but for you it is love..

the trembling knees and the sweating of hands..

arthritis?

but for you it is love..

floating in the air

hypoglycemia?

but for you it is love..

and slowly the symptoms started to disappear

alzheimer?

I don’t even remember 🙂

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Cheers,

Jamilamimi

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Weekly Photo Challenge : Muse

In response to The Daily Post’s weekly photo challenge: “Muse.”

What subject I keep on coming back? Flowers! any kind of flowers, this is my favourite subject wherever I go or even I am not going anywhere..it always fascinate me the colours it gives.

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flower for your dream
flower for your dream

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Just look into my eyes…

Is being alone synonymous to loneliness? Sometimes life is so hard when you are alone but sometimes life  is too good to be alone.sketcharabi1a

Just look into my eyes..tell me what you see…

emptiness…nothingness..

silence of my tears echoed my loneliness

but look again…feel my happiness

contentment is all that I seek for…fulfillment is what I look for

Just look into my eyes…

fill it with dreams…unlock the truth

fill my solitude…give me strength

take me into your heart…

your love is all what I needed the most

beyond misery…beyond loneliness…

just look into my eyes

beyond reasons…beyond life.

mi

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