allow me to grieve


A love story of two people who were in love but doesn’t know how deep it was until they got separated and now that they met again..mixed emotion runs deep..confused on how to end their love affair.. tragic and ironic but hopelessly romantic!

The face is the mirror of the mind, and eyes without speaking confess the secrets of the heart. 
Saint Jerome

I often think why I like you.  I could not single out just one reason.  you have so many good qualities as a person and I think it’s the combination of all of these qualities that elevates you from an average woman.   your good looks is the least of all these.  I’m not going to spend anymore time thinking what is it that makes you look so attractive. It’s enough that I like myself when I was with you.


I thought it will be heaven.. perfect for my dreams, I begun a journey with a partner with a different destination so when we finally “ arrived,” we don’t know where we are..


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Home baked Cheesecake Challenge : Flavour #34 Arabic Twist Cheesecake (halawa bil jibneh)

halawa bil jibneh
halawa bil jibneh

One thing I look for on Eid holiday is sweet…chocolates,cakes,candies etc 😉 and one of them is halawa bil jibneh ( halawa means sweet, and jibneh means cheese).My friend said, its ” cheesecake” hmmm interesting!  I consulted my friend ” google” :-0 and mostly of the recipes I got has no English translation. Anyhow, I figure out the way of cooking is just boiling the water, sugar and semolina (durum wheat) with akawi cheese added. Akawi ( akkawi, ackawi,akawieh) is a white brine cheese which has salty taste. I also use akawi cheese when I eat watermelon,a delicious combination! try it!

My challenge is how to baked it, hence my cheesecake are all home-baked, so I decided to use it as a crust instead of using biscuits, good idea? well, not so, because once I baked it, it’s kind of hard to chew, though I can still differentiate its arabic sweetness from my earlier cheesecake flavours. I used orange blossom and flower water instead of vanilla, which gives the traditional taste I am looking for arabic sweets. Oh yes, don’t forget the nuts! of course, Pistachio!

sweet orange blossom and flower water
sweet orange blossom and flower water

So , here we go ladies, Flavour # 34 Arabic Twist Cheesecake with Semolina crust

Flavour # 34 Arabic Twist Cheesecake with Semolina crust
Flavour # 34 Arabic Twist Cheesecake with Semolina crust



3/4 cup of semolina

3 tbsp unsalted butter ( or sweet butter)

3/4 cup water (or milk)

3/4 cup sugar

150 g akawi cheese


1 pk (300g) Philadelphia cream cheese

1/2 cup sugar

1 tsp orange blossom water

1 tsp flower water (rose-water)

1/8 tsp lemon juice

2 eggs plus 1 egg yolk

1/4 cup sour cream

1/4 cup whipping cream

3 tbsp shifted cake flour



sweet corn syrup

pistachio nuts


Mix water and sugar, bring it to boil add semolina and mix thoroughly in medium heat, add akawi cheese until it melts.Pour it into a pan with corn syrup. Spread it flat and allow to cool.Use the bottom of springform pan as a moulder to cut the mixture. Set aside.

Pre heat oven to Mark gas #3

Mix cream cheese with sugar,beat at medium speed, add sour cream, egg (one egg at a time), orange blossom water,flower water,flour,lemon juice. Mix thoroughly.Add whipping cream and continue beating until all ingredients are well combined. Pour into the prepared pan. Baked at 45 minutes. Let it cool for another 30 minutes and chill for 4 hours or more before topping.

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Ladies, the taste of the semolina with cheese is authentic but the texture was a bit hard for me, having tasted the best’ halawa bin jibneh” in jeddah, my recipe for the crust was not of standard. Maybe you can share yours? I’ll be happy to try it too!