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“Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation”

-Khalil Gibran

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It was many and many a year ago,
   In a kingdom by the sea,
That a maiden there lived whom you may know
   By the name of Annabel Lee;
And this maiden she lived with no other thought
   Than to love and be loved by me.
I was a child and she was a child,
   In this kingdom by the sea,
But we loved with a love that was more than love—
   I and my Annabel Lee—
With a love that the wingèd seraphs of Heaven
   Coveted her and me.
And this was the reason that, long ago,
   In this kingdom by the sea,
A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling
   My beautiful Annabel Lee;
So that her highborn kinsmen came
   And bore her away from me,
To shut her up in a sepulchre
   In this kingdom by the sea.
The angels, not half so happy in Heaven,
   Went envying her and me—
Yes!—that was the reason (as all men know,
   In this kingdom by the sea)
That the wind came out of the cloud by night,
   Chilling and killing my Annabel Lee.
But our love it was stronger by far than the love
   Of those who were older than we—
   Of many far wiser than we—
And neither the angels in Heaven above
   Nor the demons down under the sea
Can ever dissever my soul from the soul
   Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
For the moon never beams, without bringing me dreams
   Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And the stars never rise, but I feel the bright eyes
   Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side
   Of my darling—my darling—my life and my bride,
   In her sepulchre there by the sea—
   In her tomb by the sounding sea.
 -Edgar Allan Poe
We love old soul, old stuff, nature and all.. gone too soon but will be in our heart forever…

allow me to grieve

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A love story of two people who were in love but doesn’t know how deep it was until they got separated and now that they met again..mixed emotion runs deep..confused on how to end their love affair.. tragic and ironic but hopelessly romantic!

The face is the mirror of the mind, and eyes without speaking confess the secrets of the heart. 
Saint Jerome

I often think why I like you.  I could not single out just one reason.  you have so many good qualities as a person and I think it’s the combination of all of these qualities that elevates you from an average woman.   your good looks is the least of all these.  I’m not going to spend anymore time thinking what is it that makes you look so attractive. It’s enough that I like myself when I was with you.

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I thought it will be heaven.. perfect for my dreams, I begun a journey with a partner with a different destination so when we finally “ arrived,” we don’t know where we are..

mi

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happy mom’s day !

My first time in the Philippines to celebrate mother’s day with my boys.

actually, its an advance celebration because I am traveling back to Saudi Arabia.

We went to Sariwon Korean barbecue at BGC.

The meat was tender, actually all the dishes taste good but one thing I noticed, there were more side dishes than the meat itself. Service was also good and fast.

We had a set menu for 4 persons but the dessert was only good for one which I think its only for mom!

Happy mother’s day everyone!

cheers,

jamilamimi@beautybeyondfifty

Black Panther Vs Batman =Blackman

The Vin and Noira Show

The 2nd Episode has been uploaded! I can’t say much about the topic, but what caught me : Black Panther VS Batman which Noir accidentally says Blackman hehehe why not another Superhero in the making 🙂 What about you?

 

Obviously, I haven’t seen the Black panther yet (no movie theater here in KSA) but from what I knew, the story both has traumatic experience on Black panther and Batman. Black panther lost his father and Batman lost his parents. Both would like to avenge their death. Both has costume in black (am I right? ) hahaha Well I should stop comparing until I see the movie!

Ladies, let me know later which one you like more?

” you don’t need a super power to be a super hero”

Cheers,

Jamilamimi@beautybeyondfifty

Do you know me?

It’s been long I haven’t been on a Valentine’s date 🙂 A feeling of senior moment or a feeling of longing? Whatever it is, I.. for sure would like to experience it sooner. Alright, I heard you (my hand on my ear…(smiling) I am nearly on retirement age and sooner than you thought I’ll be tossing my shoes up in the air with my Valentino hahaha.

However, this post is not about me , not about Valentines but about “Love”.

My father has an Alzheimer and he is 95 yrs old. My mom is 91 ys old and she is in the early stage of dementia. My father can’t handle her mood swings or maybe.. we, the children can not tolerate the drama scene so we decided to separate them physically.

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Recently, my mom had a fall accident and got into wheelchair like my dad. When I came home, She asked about my dad, to bring him to her side.

Me: mom are you sure?

mom: yes, if you like, let him sleep here too (smiling shyly)

I was hesitant for a while, because I knew the ‘drama’ that leads to their separation but I complied to her wish anyway. I asked my dad if he is willing to see my mom, obviously he forgot the scenario that he has a wife too!

When my mom saw him, her eyes opened widely with joy and asked my dad.

Do you know me? my dad smiled and looked at her.

Do you know me? (mom repeated her question)

Me: papa si mama yan! (dad that’s mom!)

My dad, lovingly smiled at her and repeated the word “mama”.

We carried dad to mom’s bed and both are now besides each other, my mom kept asking him, do you know me? How are you? My dad embraced her and my mom knew that in spite of Alzheimer, dad still knew her by heart.

I left them for a while, my heart is pounding with joy and my eyes were welling up.

When I came back, my mom shyly but proudly announced that my dad gave her a kiss. Wow! how romantic!

I decided to give it a try, let dad sleep tonight besides mom. I missed them so much so I invited myself to joined them in one bed, dad was in the middle.

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After a few hours, I heard dad murmuring, ” I will buy a big bed”

“I will buy a big bed” he repeated it many times and eventually my mom said, Mimi, get out of bed!

Hahaha who got an Alzheimer? me ? or my dad? stupid me! The bed is too small for us.

So, I slept in the sofa and  them.. together in one bed.

Though I did not sleep well, worried that dad or my mom might fall out of bed, the night went quietly with a happiness and love in our heart.

When I woke up, dad and mom were holding hands. Do I need to say more?

The wonder of ‘Love’ it speaks in different ways!

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Dr. Exequiel and Dra. Emma Mariano married in 1950

“Love is not a memory – it’s a feeling that resides in our heart and soul”

Do you know me?

when I look into your eyes..

I may not recognized you..

I may not call your name or even say it..

I may hear but may not understand you..

Do you know me?

I may not know you..like I don’t even know me..

but I feel you.. I feel me..

when you touch my hand and I touch yours..

I know..you know..we belong to each other..

I love you papa and mama, Happy Valentines!

Cheers,

jamilamimi@beautybeyondfifty

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Mermaid’s Secret Haven – airbnb

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Photo credit: Edge Suarez

AirbnB – stands for airbed and breakfast, but that was then …today you can actually rent the whole place and make your own breakfast. 🙂

I heard about airbnb from my two sons, the first time I was going to visit them in Los Angeles. It’s cheaper than hotel and it feels like your home, but I want to feel like I’m on vacation… I don’t want to cook my own meal, clean my place, I like to stay in a hotel.

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Photo Credit: Edge Suarez

Try mom!

Alright! We stayed one week in Sta. Monica, the host is kind and the place is neat and clean, though I still think , hotel is way better but if you’re thinking to save some money for shopping 🙂  airbnb is a choice!

This is the second time I tried airbnb, this time in Hawaii for two weeks. My children would like to feel local, ok ladies, I am not rolling my eyes but my kind of holiday is like..staying in the hotel, spa,guided tours and shopping, I guess that’s my definition of a tourist. (in my own vocabulary)

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Photo Credit: Edge Suarez

What is like being a tourist and a local at the same time?

 

One thing is to rent a house far away from where the tourist usually crowds. I rented “Mermaid’s Secret Haven” in Kaneohe,Hi. Indeed, the place is far from the airport and a car is a necessity . If you have used the airbnb app, the pictures are exactly what you can find at Katrina’s place. I find her very charming and polite host.

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welcome treat from the host

It’s a one bedroom/bathroom apartment which is attached to the main house but has a separate entrance. It is complete with all the things you need while on vacation, plenty of different kinds of towels, even picnic basket,cooler and snorkelling gears are available.

Though the place is far from the centre, it is a few minutes drive from the malls and nice beaches around the island. Nearer to the North shore and Kailua beach.As the days passed, I really didn’t feel that was a far place.

I love the serenity of the place, the garden …though it was raining every now and then, I had the chance to enjoy my coffee outside and taste the sweetness of the freshly pick papaya every morning, it was heaven to my palate. Thanks Katrina!

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Photo credit: Edge Suarez

This is our family photo on rainy days inside the Maiden’s secret haven. I love it!

I’m looking forward to another family holiday,another adventure.

Will I use another airbnb?

Hmmm… maybe yes..maybe no!

Cheers,

jamilamimi

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Al baha road trip (part 2)

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(ancient ruins of 400 years old village) Dee Ayn Village

Al baha is a region in Saudi Arabia nestled between Mecca and Al abha. It is known as the region of 1001 towers,though we have seen several towers, which usually at the top of the mountain, mostly are not protected and inhabited either completely gone or partially ruined.

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palm trees and banana trees can be seen around the tower

 

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it is built on the top of a marble
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neatly arranged slate of stones

On our way back home, we passed through a town called Al Mikhwah, looking for a restaurant to eat breakfast but everything was closed probably due to Eid holiday. So we continued on until we found a huge bridge with fresh water flowing from the nearby mountain.

Is it a river?  lake? oasis?

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We went down under the bridge and had our breakfast with the sound of fresh water and after around twenty minutes a herd of camels apparently the caretaker would like to have some rest too.

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We supposed to pass by Al Leith hot spring but the weather was so hot to even attempt to pass by. 🙁

Happy Eid to all!

Cheers,

Jamilamimi

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Dhi Ain Village – the marble village of al Baha KSA (part 1)

 

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Dhi Ain Village (thi ain ancient village ) it is also known as Aqaba al-Baha. The 400 year old village was not easy to locate, we have to pass through 25 tunnels at 8,200 ft above sea level to get into al- baha. On top of that, due to numerous spellings we can’t google the place correctly. We have to go to Golden Tulip Hotel to asked for the direction. The scenery along the road was spectacular. There were few view deck along the area where you can stop and take pictures.

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built 400 years ago on a small marble mountain

Before reaching this place, we have seen ruins of abandoned stones and slate towers along the way. It’s amazing to see how the stones were arranged.

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We left our hotel early morning and we can’t just pass through without taking pictures. It was all foggy ,breezy but not so cold at this time.

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It’s a long winding road but its worth seeing the place specially we have a week Eid holiday. Though we were not able to see forest garden, we have seen few green bushes, banana ,olive, flowers along the area.

Creativity at its best!

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to be continued 🙂

Cheers,

Jamilamimi

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Weekly photo challenge: Edge

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When you can’t go forward, and you can’t go backward and you can’t stay where you are without killing off something deep and vital in yourself, you are on the edge of creation.

Photo credit : Edge Suarez

http://edgesuarez.com/people/

Edge is a very talented creative  photographer currently based in Los Angeles, USA.

did I mentioned..he is my eldest son?

yes! proud mom here 🙂

please visit http://edgesuarez.com

 

I also would like to take this opportunity to say  “THANK YOU” to my 100,043 hits!

Keep on connecting..

Cheers,

jamilamimi