Do you know me?

It’s been long I haven’t been on a Valentine’s date 🙂 A feeling of senior moment or a feeling of longing? Whatever it is, I.. for sure would like to experience it sooner. Alright, I heard you (my hand on my ear…(smiling) I am nearly on retirement age and sooner than you thought I’ll be tossing my shoes up in the air with my Valentino hahaha.

However, this post is not about me , not about Valentines but about “Love”.

My father has an Alzheimer and he is 95 yrs old. My mom is 91 ys old and she is in the early stage of dementia. My father can’t handle her mood swings or maybe.. we, the children can not tolerate the drama scene so we decided to separate them physically.

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Recently, my mom had a fall accident and got into wheelchair like my dad. When I came home, She asked about my dad, to bring him to her side.

Me: mom are you sure?

mom: yes, if you like, let him sleep here too (smiling shyly)

I was hesitant for a while, because I knew the ‘drama’ that leads to their separation but I complied to her wish anyway. I asked my dad if he is willing to see my mom, obviously he forgot the scenario that he has a wife too!

When my mom saw him, her eyes opened widely with joy and asked my dad.

Do you know me? my dad smiled and looked at her.

Do you know me? (mom repeated her question)

Me: papa si mama yan! (dad that’s mom!)

My dad, lovingly smiled at her and repeated the word “mama”.

We carried dad to mom’s bed and both are now besides each other, my mom kept asking him, do you know me? How are you? My dad embraced her and my mom knew that in spite of Alzheimer, dad still knew her by heart.

I left them for a while, my heart is pounding with joy and my eyes were welling up.

When I came back, my mom shyly but proudly announced that my dad gave her a kiss. Wow! how romantic!

I decided to give it a try, let dad sleep tonight besides mom. I missed them so much so I invited myself to joined them in one bed, dad was in the middle.

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After a few hours, I heard dad murmuring, ” I will buy a big bed”

“I will buy a big bed” he repeated it many times and eventually my mom said, Mimi, get out of bed!

Hahaha who got an Alzheimer? me ? or my dad? stupid me! The bed is too small for us.

So, I slept in the sofa and  them.. together in one bed.

Though I did not sleep well, worried that dad or my mom might fall out of bed, the night went quietly with a happiness and love in our heart.

When I woke up, dad and mom were holding hands. Do I need to say more?

The wonder of ‘Love’ it speaks in different ways!

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Dr. Exequiel and Dra. Emma Mariano married in 1950

“Love is not a memory – it’s a feeling that resides in our heart and soul”

Do you know me?

when I look into your eyes..

I may not recognized you..

I may not call your name or even say it..

I may hear but may not understand you..

Do you know me?

I may not know you..like I don’t even know me..

but I feel you.. I feel me..

when you touch my hand and I touch yours..

I know..you know..we belong to each other..

I love you papa and mama, Happy Valentines!

Cheers,

jamilamimi@beautybeyondfifty

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2017

tulip-83aIt’s been quite awhile I haven’t published any blog, I thank my followers and readers who patiently waited and kept sending me letters to ask how am I doing. Thank you!

The previous months after my birthday was indeed busy tortuous months. I could not bring an inspiration to write, I froze!

I know this too will pass and everything will be back to normal.Let us count the blessing we received for the past years and we move forward to year 2017 and the years to come.

Let us not forget the people who were not able to celebrate new year with a bang! Let us not forget the years we received blessings. Let us not forget we are human who makes mistakes and uttered some words that may hurt others but really doesn’t mean it.Let us not forget the material possessions we have are only a fraction of what we should be wishing this year.

Let us remember the love and respect we have given and received, to continue to work on the matter that is important and not the superficial things we acquire and require to get the happiness that we think will suffice our life.

Let us pray for kindness, peace and love to everyone.

2017 beginning is tough but I am ready for you!

#thank you Lord.

cheers,

Jamilamimi

Age 57 and counting…bucket list?

new-doc-34_1At age 57 and beyond… Do I still have a bucket list?   You bet!

I have plenty of it! A bucket of fats… extra kilo 🙂  a bucket of wrinkles and bulge…kidding aside:-) yeah of course, I still have things I haven’t done and would love to try to… things that I have done and would like to do it all over again.

I guess all I have done since I got married, have children and got separated …is a bucket list of how to survive for all of them,support them in any way I can, caring and loving them more than myself.

Well, I guess it’s about time to remember my bucket list for myself before I even forgot I have a list too!

Love  Oh yeah! that’s the top on my list. I have given so much that I forgot how it is being in love. Sure, my sons will always be there but I know sooner or later they will also have their own family, their own love .I would like to find someone who would inspire me to get out of the bed with a smile on my lips, start the day right and energized.I would like to have someone who can make me laugh and not cry.I like to find someone who appreciates my value in his life, who would take an extra minute to listen to my boring stories and to take me to a movie (no matter how boring it is) to a dance (even though he doesn’t know how) in short, I would like to find someone who love the way I do.Call me crazy ! (with my eyes rolling up high) And one day ,I would also  like to hold his hand, look into his eyes and take our vow, no promises of extravagance just a simple life of togetherness and love, in sickness or in health, Alzheimer or  not, till the sun rises and set…wow! I am really into this 🙂

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Travel If I have a chance I would like to see “The great pyramid of Giza” the only one surviving from the seven wonder of the Ancient world. Next is to visit the new seven wonders of the modern world.I had the chance to visit Petra in Jordan, so I have five left. The great wall of china, the colosseum of Rome ,Chitchen Itza of Mexico,Macchu Picchu of Peru,Taj Mahal of India and the Christ Redeemer of Brazil. And I also would like to go back to Paris and more 🙂 you know if you’re putting something on the bucket list, make it grand! at least there are choices and it doesn’t hurt if u can travel to one or two. It’s a blessing!

Learn an instrument I enjoyed listening to music, watch live orchestra or musical concert and it is my dream to learn how to play piano or violin. I know someday I gonna do it.

Self publish a book I would like to publish my own memo, though I am sharing my experiences on my blog, there are a lot more to explore like how and why I am still here in Saudi Arabia? or then and now of living in Saudi Arabia or who knows? my own love story (the rise and fall) really? let’s see 🙂

Learn how to swim Yeah! I only knew how to float but not to really swim. I love to go to the beach , who doesn’t? but can’t really explore because I am scared to drown. I also want to learn how to snorkel and even scuba diving. wow! I see your eyebrow is up!

Learn how to drive everyone knew, women are not allowed to drive in Saudi Arabia, so there’s always from the back of my mind, I wish I can drive so I can go to places without being at the mercy of unruly drivers.

There are more things I would love to explore but I’ll reserve it when I am sixty 🙂

Ladies, I think if you feel like doing something different or learn new things, this is NOW, children are already grown up, chasing their own dream…don’t just sit there because you feel old, be a part of the now generation, be young in mind and spirit.Continue to be an inspiration,be active and you will find a new breath of life.

So, what am I doing on my birthday? snooze! Z Z Z Z Z Z  two thumbs up!

next blog pls! the bday dinner 🙂

 

Cheers,

jamilamimi

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Special Photo Challenge: Inspiration

blog is like a desert – an endless body of thoughts

My discoveries are endless…I will continue to learn… to share… to dream…and to inspire!

i got my inspiration from my sons passion in photography

It is hard being alone in a foreign land where a woman’s voice is as rare as the rain pours. I was inspired to write my thoughts, what is happening around, the places I have been, the people I have met. I was inspired by other women who continues to fight, to dream and live happily in-spite of their difficulties.

bonding with friends, laughter and places are inspiration

Yes, out of boredom, i was inspired to start blogging but not to out pour my negativity but instead to inspire other women, to motivate them that there is beauty beyond fifty. I was inspired to learn how to take pictures from my sons who are both artistic on their own merit. I was inspired by the feedback i got from the readers.

self timer is on! at 53 I can still run and jump

I started my blog February 7, 2011, three months to go and  a year will pass, I will continue to blog, a memories of my days, places,friends and my families and to my would be grandchildren and their children,to them…my  memories,my thoughts, my life beyond fifty will always be remembered.

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cheers!

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